The world around us is the way we see it. Our paradigms are like maps describing the territory, correct or incorrect.
~ 7 Habits of HIghly Effective People aka 7 of the habits of JonathanTeo
Haha.
Well, whatever. I dunno whether what i did was right, turning down vj's offer for caroling. Its probably the first time i've "turned down" going for a choir practice. I hope this doesn't get me into the bad books of whoever selected me to be able to go for the caroling. But then again, i'm not a part of the prestigious VJC yet. So to be associated with the subset of this name, the choir, is it a little too much?
Okay maybe its not too much. But officially, i'm not actually skipping something i'm supposed to go to. Argh. I'm only afraid that this would tarnish my otherwise new and squeaky clean reputation there. Anyhow, what's done is done.
And its better than just daoing the msg and saying "oops i didn't see the msg". Because i know that at the end of the day i really cannot make it and i really am going overseas.
I guess its time to stop counting eggs that aren't hatched (is there such a proverb?) and ...
oh yes i'm gonna play tennis later! Cool.
Ah, spent the morning watching forest gump, i think its a great show.
- Life is a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get next
- Shit Happens
- Have a nice day
LOL,
Argh, but i still feel very guilty and upset over the choir incident.
Its times like these when you start to be busy (day camp, youth camp, holiday with cousins) that you start to draw close with so many groups of people.
Sometimes, these feelings of nostalgia and sometimes love creep in.
*rolls eyes* One thing that never fails to amuse me on blogpatrol time and time again is that there will be perennial searches linking to "innocent thoughts", "innocent thoughts jonathan teo" and the worse being "innocents thoughts by jonathan teo". I mean like... wth! People try to search me... Well other names would be aaronliew, enangoh, seanlee... ... that's all i can rmb for now (plus a few vsteachers as well).
Argh i think hanging out with kids will make you more childish. That's why i think i'm a little more childish, a little more whiney, a little more noisy now. Lol. Girls' schools... ... haha. I think single gender schools are really unique and they rock. Even though i prefer boys schools... lol, but both of the students, i think, have the most fun. Unless you are outcast and the butt of most jokes, i guess, its good.
Yep. And i really love taylor swift songs now. She doesn't have powerful vocals which can match the likes of alicia keys or celine dion, but its just that her recordings are really good.
If you compare her concert performances to her studio recordings, you know that she puts in really hard work in her studio recordings. I mean, she looks awkward when she tries to dance during performances, but the many layers during her recordings and the tiptop condition her voice is in when she sings the songs in her albums tells about her professionalism.
I guess that's the thing about a singer which draws my interest. And that's possibly why i like adam lambert's songs (I'M NOT GAY). I think he's really great (minus the kissing on stage and who-knows-what offstage haha).
Compare the studio of "no boundaries" and his performance. its like OMG. Its really good, i'm like gushing about how good it is lor. I really like he's recordings. It must be the layering he does and somehow his voice manages to remain smooth and good during the recordings. And, even better than taylor swift, he is able to deliver even better (i feel) for live performances).
But i guess the point where taylor swift is better is that her music videos are better. I mean adam just tries to look s**y and stuff while her MVs have real stories. So... yeah.
pfft...
This is a darn good live performance. Change the guy to be lambert and WOW. No lah kris would be better for this. Yeah, its real cool, this video.
Thank goodness for blogpatrol which assures me that there my blog traffic is still as per normal. I thought that it had stagnated because of the low number of tags. I bet you're reading this. (haha)
Actually i sometimes actually can't figure about blogging. Hence i shall try outline the pros and cons about blogging. This will not be a model essay as those from Popular bookstores which already pen down the ideas. This would instead be on a more personal level. I will not use this points in an essay but on my blog, for now, yes.
Firstly i think that it is good because it is therapeutic. As i've explained umpteenth times on my blog already, it is good as i can air out what i've been thinking. Though i'm not airing out my many thoughts today (in case my father is looking through this blog which may be a high possibility), generally it allows me to think aloud. This helps to ease away some of my worries as they seem insignificantly small creases when i actually pen them down in words.
Secondly, i think that blogging is helpful because it allows me to have a thought life. Again, i've described this many times. Anyway for pete's sake (lol random) it creates a thought life because some of the activities taking place in my mind are penned down. Take for example IP students. If they didn't have any examinations but just projects, their academic life would be dead till they actually take the A Levels. What would they say when people asked them what they were doing while the rest of the cohort was taking the O Levels? Or us students, if we didn't have a record of our academic achievements, then we would just be students at face value. There is no particular record. Hence by blogging there is actually a journal and log of my thoughts which captures them digitally. I'm probably going to pass on later in life and if i didn't keep something which logs what i think, then it would be a little sad.
On the other side of the coin, the thing about blogging is that it reveals much about myself to others. An example would be kaine, i was talking with him some time back where he suddenly blurted out something about me that i didn't tell him. He was saying that it was the "negative influence of technology" because he got the information from my blog. Well, on a more serious note, it actually reveals my thoughts and much of my candid personality to people whom i may not know who are viewing my blog. Sean's sister used to visit my blog :S And imagine if my future friends in vjc chance on my blog and are finding out more about me :O
All in all, it is true that blogging has its pros and cons. In this peculiar case, the cons are actually very closely tied to the pros. By pronouncing one's thought life, not just in a private diary in isolation but in a public space to be sure of what we're thinking (we might feel no motivation writing a personal diary as no one comments on it), we show our thoughts publicly. This is therapeutic but at the same time allows unwanted people to see private thoughts which is a downside. However, in life there is nothing which has no downside and hence, i will continue blogging.
Okay its a lame ending but i don't know how else to end it lol. Sounds like some terminator "i will return" or something. Ahhh being random yeah bye.
Watching a few recently - quite interesting, i never was interested in any before. i still don't really like watching MVs but those that draw my attention are those with a good storyline between a boy and girl and a happy ending and especially ones with the whole band jumping their heads off with us being able to see them playing their instruments.
Haha weird, i laughed.
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Ah i'm lazy to put up anymore MVs haha. So much for the title.
Stupid coach, busy today. Now i'll spend the day rotting at home. Grr. Could have had a lot of fun today. Forget it.
As much as i want to blame my indecisiveness on adolescence, it is definitely not the cause. So what if we are "swimming in hormones"? In fact, if we do not make a habits of good routines now, we would not progress much in adulthood either.
Its very simple. What we do before we are 20 will determine how far we would be able to get to in the future. And what we do before 30 will set our character and future for possibly the rest of our lives. If we have a lackadaisical attitude towards what we do when we are still an adolescent (which means impressionable - we are able to be influenced easily), then we'll be even more stubborn about changing in the future.
That's why i'm so determined to go to youth camp and fire up everything once again. But then again, a Christian life isn't just during a camp and cannot be built up in just 5 days, it has to be a slow but long walk. As a speaker put it, quantum leaps in Christian walks are not very common and what would sustain the life of our walk would be the everyday footsteps.
Yes, we learn new things in camp. Its like, we leap very far during camp in our walk. But the thing about the walk is that it is not about the distance we travel, but about the displacement. We have to make progress everyday in our walk. By prayer, or by reading the bible, we must progress in our walk, knowing a little more about God each and every day.
I thank God for today. It was really good. I enjoyed playing the piano for the service, really very nice. There was one break where it was really just fun to play the piano. Its like, the bassist was really enjoying himself and his grooves made you not want to be the ugly spot in the sound so i naturally pushed myself to play even better. yeah, it was great.
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My holidays.
Friday (13th Nov)
- After the paper we went to the music room. Where after that went with choir people to catch 2012.
- spent the night at the downtown east chalet with guat and gang. bowled at e=hub before going to watch "my girlfriend is an agent" (we got "tricked" by the girls because they bought the tickets for a NC16 horror movie)
- wasted time away by just playing bridge (didn't like the style they played with) and stoning for 3 hours thinking of a game. walked to e-hub at 4am dead in the night.
- slept at about 0530 am
Saturday
- couldn't sleep and woke up at 6am. was very cold and it was dark, and after watching a nc16 horror movie...
- quickly got myself out of the chalet and dropped in for the choir camp
- chat with the altos and went home to sleep
- after the nap, i got up to go to help with the vocals in church for the service in xyq. was a blast
- came home for dinner and cycled my spoilt bike to school for CHOIR CAMP!
- rahh! was fun. played table tennis/bridge. was really very tired
- when everyone started to sleep about 1am, i couldn't sleep - might be because of the previous days erratic sleeping schedule of sleeping at 5am
- watched les chorestles or something with ting zhou, was really nice the show. i love the song, and pepinot
- VERY COLD! i borrowed nat's blanket from 4 to 4.30 (am) because it was so cold. i was wearing shorts and a drifit teeshirt, really very cold, the wind was very strong, about 23 degree celcius that night, and the cold wind didn't make it any better
- slept at 4.30am thereabouts
Sunday
- was quite tired because i woke up at 6.30 (2 hours of sleep) because of the alarm clocks of the committee members.
- played soccer and scored 2 goals ^^ Won 2-1. it was really hard to score because there were like 20-25 people running in the tennis court and we were playing only half of the court.
- went to church. then went home and slept.
Monday
- a day of adjusting my body clock back to real time.
- read this real good book which is a guide to the Bible, had many insights because it was written by a bible scholar. he tried to find evidence against christianity but the more he researched, the more he was convinced that christianity was true.
- used the the comp in the afternoon and at night
Tuesday
- wasted my morning away by catching up on all the taped tv shows over the last few days.
- went out and got back my charger from karrington. The start of my psp playing again
Wednesday
- played psp a lot, and visited my grandmother at outram park. she had an operation
- played psp the rest of the day
Thursday
- played psp a lot in the morning again.
- went to myo's house and played halo 2, was very fun
- to my horror there was FIFA 2010 so i realised i wasted 3 days playing fifa 2009 so hard
- walked to SGH from outram (because the shuttle service stopped after 7). quite proud of myself because i got there through asking directions. (okay i prayed too lah haha)
Friday
- swam in the morning, first exercise and the only time so far i did during the holidays
- HOLIDAY BS! was fun. first time i went to LAN
- played CS and L4D. Yeah, i wasn't good at the computer games lah...
Saturday
- went for vjchoir's function. really cool, was loads of fun
- hurried back after some lame "interview" and went for bs
- went to my cousin's 21st at costa sands. was quite fun
- first i ate A LOT, then i played psp. then psp no battery, so i went to play sudoku. after a few puzzles, because of the poor lighting, i asked my other cousins if they knew how to play taitee. they knew
- yeah, and played taitee to about 12.30 or so.
- reached home at 1am thereabouts and slept at 1.30
(very tiring day because i was already out under the scorching sun at vj. then had to sing and then stayed out so late)
Sunday
- my voice wasn't so good in the morning because of the late night's rest and i sang a lot (to practise) after vj yesterday. first thing when i went to church pastor choy passed me the mic
- oh no, i just woke up and my voice was airy and hoarse like... ... so i tried to sing softer haha. in the end i just put the mic on the chair. SORRY! i'll do it to the best of my ability the next time round
- played piano for the chinese/hokkien service. i think our band is opening up lots more to each other. a few more weeks and we'll probably be quite close to each other already.
- was fun playing the piano.
= came home and now am typing this
- wanted to swim earlier but didn't turn out well so... ...
Yeah. And i hope the rest of the holidays would be fruitful!
"Hey, let's dress up to look completely FABULOUS for prom! *squeals and giggles*"
And the girl looks absolutely ravishing and b-e-a-utiful for prom. And yeah... so what?
I mean, if you know this girl to be extremely annoying, self-centered and selfish, would you "like" her just because of that night? All because a person looks more handsome or pretty on one particular night does not mean that that person had good looks all the long. I mean, so what if you look great in make up but you don't put make up everyday?
And that's the beginning of the sad part. So what if we're smart all the long, but we never really use it everytime? I mean, there aren't many chances we have to show how smart we are, how deep our thinking is and how much knowledge we do have. So shouldn't we grasp those opportunities to display those talents as brightly as possible with these minute chances that flash before us? And that's the dumb thing.
In life, shit happens.
But then again, life isn't all about just shit. Its about the joy and beauty as well. In fact, sorry about what i said earlier, life isn't about shit at all. At the end of the day, it all boils down to the mindset and attitude. These 2 words are definitely not synonyms, though used in the same sentence, it is totally different.
Yes, our mindset is important because our mindset is our mentality, the way we look at things. The way we view the world around us. If we are brimming with optimism and hope having confidence that the future will not be one which we would be regret because we have put in our best time after time, The attitude is slightly different in that it is the thinking and reaction we have to things happening around us. A bad attitude can be classified as a poor show of "sportsmanship" or ungentlemanly conduct. A good attitude is a pleasing response which is efficient or shows graciousness.
So attitudes and our mindset. And today was fun. And who knows man, its only like 1 week of "freedom" left. Time really flies so quickly, tomorrow will be a weekend already. I'm back to wasting time man. Its like, spending my time away on a psp. It passes faster than the O Levels itself. The good thing is that i've been going out for the last 2/3 days so it might not really be a waste.
But then, i haven't been exercising as i planned to or reading. Grr.
Known as Jоиaтнaи. No other introduction needed to my illustrious reputation huh? Welcome to my World of Thoughts.
Victorian Nil sine Laboure VS Choir
Child of God.
SHPS Musical inclination prevents me from hating the Piano
The world held its breath at the legacy birthed on 29th October.
Anime follower - Naruto, Bleach, Prince of Tennis, Gundam Seed, Avatar, One Piece, Dragonball, Cardcaptor Sakura and many other obscure ones
Enjoys thinking games - Chinese Chess, Bridge, Reversi, Minesweeper Flags
